waiting SUCKS

I had a bad night last night - it was late and I googled all this scary stuff about bone cancer. It was a totally stupid thing to do but I just HATE all the waiting. I want us to own this thing so badly, and with more and more tests and waits for results it is just so hard. I know that no matter what the results are, our onc will have a plan and we will wage the war and win, but fear of the unknown is just such a huge factor right now.